Our trip to Missoula

Last week, Timmyfan and I went to Missoula and we really had a blast there. Now mind you, Missoula is a much bigger town than Bozeman and there was really a lot more there to see. One of the first places we went to was at a mobile home park that TF called about that did not have a pet limit. It did sound too good to be true, but we had to check it out. When we finally got there, the park looked kind of crappy, although some homes were in good shape. We scoped around trying to find the main office and all we could find were some of the residents. Timmyfan spoke to a man that lived there and he gave us some very interesting information about the landlord. He said that the landlord was a slumlord, he would refuse repairs, act rude to the tenants, and even had the city contact him about that too. I knew there was something wrong when I called up the landlord and I said I was interested in seeing the park, he hung up on me, which I think was rude. After hearing all that, I wasnt interested in the park anymore and went merry on my way. Then we went looking for apartments. I found one that had a river flowing in the backyard, a dishwasher, and even a backdoor for Odessa to get out. It looked kind of dirty inside, but I think they were still in the process of fixing it up. But it looked great, I might consider that place as one of my options. Then the next day, we went to look at RVs at this one dealer that had a huge lot and a bigger selection than the one here in Bozeman. We took the dogs into each and everyone that we saw. One of the 5th wheels had a living room up in the top, which I had never seen before. That one was cool. Then there was one that was like a little trailer with a glass sliding door and a huge living area. That one I would LOVE to give to TF. Imagine living on the beach with that one and a huge bay window with a view of the ocean........AAAAAHHH!! We had a fun time looking at the RVs. Then I let Timmyfan stay in the hotel room while I went out to do a few things. I went to visit the school there, but couldnt get around much because of the construction that was going on. so I didnt stay long. Then I went to look at another apartment building that made the last one I saw look junky. It was nice and it had everything: washer/dryer hookups, dishwasher, AC, and outside a swimming pool, a huge lobby and lounge area, and even a mini movie theater. I told myself...this I want it. But it will have to wait. Another reason why we went there was also to attend an orientation at their local housing authority and sign up for housing of any kind. I went for the biggie...section 8, public housing, and for another complex that sounded great. But the waiting list for those can be up to 2-3 years. If TF has to wait for hers, so can I. But the real truth is that I wanna be there right now. The reason I decided to pick Missoula was mainly to be closer to home without having to leave the state. They have a lot more than Bozeman does although I am not so sure about free bus rides. You dont have to go through an awful lot of passes to get home which might be safer. And Missoula is at least 1,000 ft. lower in elevation than Bozeman. It was actually much easier to breathe there than it is here. Those mountains there were actually so close you could touch it....no I really mean it. A friend of mine on Facebook who lives there said that I would love it in Missoula after I posted that I couldnt wait to move there, and you know, she's right. I already do. The only problem is trying to decide which of those cool apartments to move into. Why I didnt think to move there in the FIRST place, I will never know. The cost of living is actually cheaper there......everything is cheaper there, even food and gas. Probably because I didnt think of it at first. But TF hates Montana and I would think that she would not like it there as much as the coast, even though she did have a good time. TF belongs on the coast and there she will stay. But there are at least a few things about Missoula that I worry about. First of all, its a bigger town, and bigger towns usually mean a lot of crime. I see it on the news all the time. Second, I didnt see a single huckleberry soda there and this is a place where huckleberries are found. Of course that problem could be solved if I went to the gas stations and looked for them, like we did lastnite. Well, thats out trip in general. I would love to do that again.

My life, or so I thought

I just dont know what to think about anything anymore, and everything I worked for maybe flying out the window and I hate that. It all started basically when Lois caught Timmyfan not having her dogs on a leash. There's a camera on the 3rd floor lobby that we were not aware of. Lois threatened to give Timmyfan 30 days notice or she's outta here. TF just like gave up everything and had her last straw with the manager. She became more determined than ever to leave here and go back to the coast. But this is not really what started this, but it certainly escalated to the extreme to where TF had nothing left to do but move back home. Before I even started attending school here, I was so excited about coming here and I was really excited about being accepted too. I talked it over with Timmyfan and she seemed to be all for it....THEN. I tried looking for a place to live for all of us, but they either dont allow pets or they have student restrictions. But when it came close to time for the finals and for me to go home, I had to find something in a hurry. Thats how we ended up here in subsidized housing. At first it was just gonna be me and Odessa. I should have kept it at that and never should have mentioned this to TF at all. But the only reason I even brought Timmyfan in the first place, THE ONLY REASON, was because we were being pressured and pushed into an actual date to move out by the housing authority back home. They kept threatening to cut off our housing privaleges if we didnt give them a date. They even didnt give TF enough time to find a new place in Ocean Shores. It was either take her with me, or she lives on the street. Now that I look back on it, I should have left her on the street, at least she would stay on the coast. I'm sure Ma would have come to get her and helped her find a new place. I never expected TF to like Montana, its not her thing. And I never once forced her to like it here either. She complains about the climate here, and she often compares to what we had in Ocean Shores that they dont have here. Its mainly just little things, but the climate is her biggest threat. TF tried to make it work here, but the longer she stayed, the more depressed she became. I sympathized with her, I really do. Thats why we need to get TF back to the coast NOW!!!!!!! But there's more to this story that has me asking "what the .....?" I am really excited about starting school, a new program, and some courses that I cant wait to start. I spent all year getting it set up and to finally claim myself as a resident. Now that its getting very close to school starting, TF and Karen are trying to talk me out of it. they are more worried that if I graduate, I would not find be able to find work as a mapmaker and that I will have a mass of student loan bills to pay for and no job to pay them. The thing is that I dont want just a job, I want a career, something I can be proud of. Just once in my life, I want a step ahead and not remain at the bottom of the pool. Now that TF has talked to Ma and Dad, they want me to move back home. OMG, I am not as enthusiastic as Timmyfan to move back. She would be the only one to get any pleasure out of this. She wants to live on the coast. I like to live in places where they have everything and I love the mountains. All this is just so sudden to me and I have not done anything to get myself out. I also have the feeling that I might not get to stay on the waiting list for housing in Missoula, which is what I really want. TRM, I gotta write a blog about our trip to Missoula and tell everyone how that went. Might explain that last sentence. Been meaning to do that you know. I dont know what to say or what to do. I am like totally confused I dont know who I am anymore. I worked hard to gain residency here and it took me a year to get to this status. Because of that, I really dont wanna leave Montana. Just because TF hates it here, doesnt mean that I have to. I mean we both dont like the same things, doesnt mean we dont like each other. But I am an adult and free to do whatever I want to. Most people my age dont have parents around telling them what to do. Plus I'm single, its not like I'm married and tied down with a family. If TF wants to move back to the coast, hey, I'm all for it. I have never objected to that. I only wish her the best of luck and gain more happiness there and then some. That is all I really wanted to do for TF.